I knew when I met Zach that no one could ever give me the same amount of love, respect, and understanding that he did. He made me laugh, made me question and learn. He helped me become a better person all together. No one could ever in my eyes be better or more perfect for me. I still can't believe that Zach chose me to be his wife. Then, as if my love couldn't be grander, he gave me two of the most wonderful children, so perfect, yet so small. They were, literally, the most amazing, miraculous beings I had ever laid eyes or hands on. God granted me with this unbelievable gift- the gift of being Blake and Conor's mother. Being Zach's wife and Blake and Conor's mom is truly my biggest honor.
Not a day goes by do I not have some thought and longing for Conor. But the fact that I was even graced to see this angel breathe life, if only for hours, is a gift itself. I saw an angel on this earth. I saw God's child, right in front of my eyes and he was mine. He was perfect. And I was his mother.
To my son, You will always be the glimpse of hope, on a other wise hopeless situation. You will always be the smile in the room full of frowns, and You will always be my peak of sunshine on a cloudy day.
"The other night dear, as I lay sleeping I dreamed I held you in my arms When I awoke dear, I was mistaken So I bowed my head and I cried You are my sunshine, my only sunshine You make me happy when skies are gray You'll never know dear, how much I love you Please don't take my sunshine away."