Monday, July 30, 2012

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Happy "Birth" Day.

July 29,2012

I dream of you often.

I speak to you daily.

I love you always.

July 29th, 2012.
The day our boys were meant to enter into our life. Baby showers over, nursery ready, take home outfits picked out, our hospital bag ready. We were suppose to go in, have two beautiful baby boys, family surrounded crying of joy and happiness, smiles filling the room!

A dream...a happy day!!

Instead, three and half months ago, we went to the hospital.
No baby showers yet.
The nursery walls covered with 5 different shades of blue painted in lines waiting for a decision. Two cribs sat, a changing table and 2 swings, but still the room sat incomplete.
No outfits picked out.
No hospital bag packed.
Two babies were born, family surrounded us happy and smiling but with fear and thoughts racing through our minds...
"too's too early."
Tears, mourning, and heartbreak followed, balanced with hope, continued fear and fight!!

We fight everyday along side Blake, knowing how quickly life changes, how quickly you can lose something or in our case SOMEONE you love. One second everything is fine, and the next you are saying your last goodbye. How quickly your life can be flipped upside down!

Today is a hard day.
Here is a list of the feelings we have gone through today.


Do you know how bi-polar we feel!?!
We are called strong, and inspirational....
but we are just two parents SO in love with their children!

We had a celebration today. A "birth" day party. Grandparents joined in on the festivities, as did the nurses. We had a banner, a birthday outfit, and treats! We were minus one guest- but his presence was felt all day!!

Conor James Hargis, our baby "B", Blake's twin baby brother, our angel, you are so missed our hearts aches, we long to know your smile, your smell, how we wish you were here to celebrate your "birth" day too!! We long for your beautiful perfect face, your tiny fingers and toes, we wish we could kiss you, hold you, and love on you everyday!! We miss you, we thank you for watching over us, and we love you so much!!

Our Fighter, our lil' miracle, Blake Alan Hargis, we have never been so proud, so in awe of someone, but you son are truly the most inspirational, most perfect, little boy! You have captured the hearts of so many, and you have stolen ours! Until you and your brother were born we never knew that love like this existed!

John 14:27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.

Blake's "birth"day outfit!!
Howdy y'all!!

Little bit of milk...

Full after his bottle! tired!! Shouldn't drink so much bud!!!

Note the cowboy boots!!

He didn't like it at first...

Still not sure....

Do kisses make you happier?

"this is SO embarrassing!"

Saturday, July 28, 2012

Spreading the Love.

After weeks of visits, and surprise after surprise I can finally post these pics of Blake spreading the love!!

Please excuse any tears... They are happy ones!!

Ladies first.......Grand-mo

......and Grammy Pam

.... Grandpa Mike

.....and of course Grandpa Mark

Still waiting to spread the love with a few more grandparents... But Blake is loving ALL the attention that's for sure!!

Friday, July 27, 2012

Due date approaching.

July 27, 2012
It has been a BIG week!! As the due date approaches it is hard not to become a little homesick...

Even more so when we are told we would probably be heading home if we didn't have another upcoming surgery!! Which we were told today could still be weeks away....( big sad face here in Indy!!) but on a positive note- it allows us to continue to get bigger, stronger, and sent home with less equipment! And didn't I mention earlier it was a BIG week?!? Maybe I should elaborate....

Do you notice anything missing?!?

NO oxygen!!!! And we are rocking at breathing all on our own!!

And for the next big Big BIg BIG deal check us out!!!
...Do you see what our lil' man is doing?!?

Taking a bottle like a champ!!! Blake is now taking a bottle with every feeding as tolerated! And he is doing great... We are so proud!

We also got to take a big boy bath this week....Rather than a stinking bed bath!!!

He hated it really... But he loved being cuddled in towels afterward!!

And... YES there is more!!! We got our central line out of his chest a few days ago too!!!
So NO more IV's!!!!

With his central line....

And without!!! (he was happy about it I'm sure...just not in this picture!!!)
We have had that line in since April and really have never seen all of Blake's chest!!

We will try and keep you all updated on his next surgery, and stay tuned for our blog on this Sunday's "birth" day party in honor of our due date!!!

The many faces of blake!!!

(PRE no oxygen!!)

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